IN THE BEGINNING....1/30

"In poems we trust"
This thought stayed inside
Until my pen brought our words to life
A poem written
is a poets lottery win...
Silence has been the deadliest literature
Spoken word made thoughts a weapon
Poetry isn't always a happening
Its expressions that suddenly happened
Mind provoking
When tongues are bitten
Lost voices become written
When spittin truths
Is our "Art of Noise" on words we're choking.........on
I'm pledging 30 days of
Voices
3o days of
Writing
30 days of
Versatility
30 days of
Passion
and 30 days of
Poems performed in poetry
from a poet who loves words....

 ~TNW~
‪#‎NaPoMo‬
‪#‎Poem1‬

APATHY...2/30

In a relationship with my pen
A marriage with my poetry
Journals are witnesses to my trials...
My thoughts are with conflicting
Battling decisions my heart makes
I shrug at my interest for my PENtrest.
Caring is a dropping stock,
In this "Dow Love Jones"
Love overboard
In sinking relationships
My pen threatens to protest
Papers are packing to leave me
All this miscommunication
Because I decided to memorize and recite
Without jotting a word down for poetry.

~TNW~

BREATHE....3/30

Over anxious
Over thinking
Overstanding...
Almost over it
Wanting to let go
Release this build up tension
Thoughts have road blocks
Body too numb to respond
I sit in corners with balled up feelings
I refuse to function as disfunctional
One last opportunity
See if the fables are true
I either do or die
or Die trying
Preparation is set
Writing vein emerges
Bic don't fail me now
Incision complete
Multiple injections of Blue and Black stimuli's
I feel the flow
It burns, so I must let go
Hyper-ventilation is back to 3 sec exhales
Inhales are PENtoxicated
I finally found my juice
The source for my writers block excuse
Formula
Pen times Ink Square = WRITING

~TNW~

COLLISION...4/30

Didn't see it coming
I'm sure I stayed my lane
Nothing in my road of clarity...
My path was certain
But the impact happened
Two forces collided
No one assured about me ensured
Neither of us was insured
Punitive damages
Collateral sacrifices
Our hearts can not beat no faster
I'm sure the sign said, " Love One way"
Accidental purposes
Finding "Love on a two way street".

~TNW~

DISINGENUOUS...5/30

Tears,
Are only pourig falls raining from low streams
Looking for acceptance...
Imploring for forgiveness
My iniguity was truly unplanned
I allowed this wickedness to cloud me
My communication is incoherent to your listening
Every move from here is punishable by your laws
You see every Truth to be a lie in disguise
No longer that Knight in shinning armor
but the wolf in sheeps clothing
I was blinded to think
My ways are Godly
Emotions misguided by troubling spirits
And spirits
Have been my nightly worships
from holding the bottle
while rubbing the bottle
Hoping a Jenny will come from the Devils nectar
to grant me a 3 wishes of "New Beginning"
Clutching my bible while praying
While swearing with the other hand
She loathe me
She loves me not
I would never leave you
I will never hurt you
The Echoes,
In auto-tunes voices
that now plagues the pages of my journal
The struggle continues for uprising
until then--
CLOSED CHAPTER.........

~TNW~

EUPHORIC...6/30

A Whole New World
Introduction to a feeling of lost art
Reviving muscles in frowns, refusing to smile...
I see glows that force fields me
The light is now shinning upon me
Heaven and Earth with my Angel
I rise to excitement
While I fall calmly in freedom
A tear drop of happy love
that causes my still pond to wave in infinity circles
I got bounce in my step
My hello's to passer buyers-
are sarcastically sincere
Is this love,
Is this love,
Is this love,
Is this love, That I'm feeling?
Pass this on to my Queen
Tag her in her timeline
Let likes, Love and OMG from you, flood her eyes
Let her know what poems in dedication-
looks like on Social media screens
Proving to her,
I don't do this for attention
Expression in words to HER,
is because my love's ATTENTIVE.....to HER
I chased you for courtships
Your name alone speaks with my last name on it
My hands join to your palms
Finger interlock in relationship status
Not once needing approval from others
besides the one we jointly call "OUR FATHER"
Is this love,
Is this love,
Is this love,
Is this love, that I'm feeling
Keep filling me with feelings
And know
This messenger chose you
As did my heart, mind and spirit did too.

~TNW~

FUSION....7/30

Going green with my brown
Every toxins are probiotic
My system adapts to outside cells...
No foreign debris invading good health
She saved my life
Introduce to a path for a trail mix
Turn me into a Vita-man
Possibly added a few more years to my nutrition
Give my body a second chance
A new green fuel
A me going green...

~TNW~

GRATUITY...8/30

A EZ-pass to a speed trap
Open access for a closure
A handout for the needy...
Panhandling for the self greedy
Expectation is high on low allowance
How can you take and not give
No appreciation when you receive
It's all about you
It's all about you
It's all about things you have done
Which in reality, is very little
You see yourself as a silver spoon of Gratuities
But you're merely a thief of materialism
Which don't exclude stealing hearts.
No more emotional handouts
Apply within
Because now,
Love is not for sale
It's a hired position with no exit plan.

 ~TNW~

GUILTY..9/30

Guilty of all past, present and future charges
Facing them like a man
No need to be in denial...
I have no excuse to give reasons in lies
I'm ready to confess without questioning
I did it
Yes, I done it
And knew I was going to do it
Call it pre-meditated
A thought out plan before-
A blue print that was touched by black ink
I gave warning signs
Threw red flags on my own play
Wasn't trying to surprise you
Yet, catch you off guard
Polygraph will only make me laugh with truth
And still pass with flying colors
So There,
This interview for interrogation is done
This is my written statement
Of how I was purposely plotting-
TO LOVE YOU. ‪#‎Guilty‬


~TNW~

HINDRANCE..10/30

There are those
That don't want you to have
Stand in your way to progress...
Discourage you from succeeding
The worst on those list
Is YOU.
Often blame others
But won't take credit for your own blocking
We can't admit to being our own obstacles
We tend to wear complacency daily
Find contentment our 4 food groups
Digesting what was told to us
Making a living on negative beliefs
What's your reasons for your excuses
Take a long look in the mirror
And see why you are where you are
Confront them
Let them go
And Start a new vision
Without an old reflection
Now grow.....

~TNW~

INFINITY....11/30

If time is infinity....


Why isn't enough infinity in time
Limits even on an on-going clock.....TIME...
Numbers keep counting........TIME
Yet, we can't out live them......TIME
My heart has a beat of infinite times of more.....TIME
But in a matter of your passing.....tic tic tic tic
Stopping in my presence...tic
It paused like a cassette taped tangled in a radio....TIME
I couldn't rewind your approach...TIME
Nor could I replay your beautiful stop.....tic tic
before pause....TIME
Time is of the essence
and in this message
there would never be a ending story in TIME
but our love story is Infinity and beyond........TIME

~TNW~

JUSTIFY....12/30

Its useless to give you reasoning
Though my heart and mind is connected to me
Doesn't mean they act accordingly...
Heart often makes choices without consulting my mind
The feud between the two is endless
They agree when they are happy
Argue when they're hurt
Heart wants to give chances-
the Mind refuses
The mind wants to let go of un-wanting feelings-
the heart refuses to stop feeling
And me,
The host of this shell covering the two
I am a puppet to this convention of organs
Wanting to do what I want to do....RIGHT or WRONG?
Here's my struggle
YOU, yeah YOU!
You entered my realm
Occupied my space
Causing a chain reaction of responses with-
both of my organs
Got me floating 11 on 11 Universal Heavens
Always dancing with the stars (Angels)
Lost all function and control of feelings and thoughts
But you continue you to ask me
"Do I love you? and Why?
And My response continues to be,
"Just Because, With No JUSTIFICATION"

~TNW~

KILLJOY...13/30

Apologies can't put together heartbreaks
Sorry's is sorry to a person with high expectation
Forgive me can be forgiven through the disappointment...
Trust me, is honesty's knife on open wounds
I love you, is a venom on tongues who dare to speak this
Once happiness is gone,
Expect bitterness to be your only greeting
"Wish I stayed by myself" you're constantly repeating
Tired of doing good in the agenda of bad
Giving all me was a gift I can't take back
Now I can't feel no more
Feelings is numb
My heart beats on flat lines
Vision will never gain clarity
Echoes of deceit fills my deaf ears
While I mute to everything positive spoken in negatives
Its truly me against the world
All I have left is the me I slightly trust
Steer this ship to focus latitudes
Treading waters with a beacon of hope
I won't, I can't, this is not going to happen.......
NO MORE

~TNW~

LOYALTY....14/30

A liaison for love
I surrender my deed of singularity
for the title-ship of commitment...
A life long partnership with no expiration
Just know,
You are my first priority mortally
Second to my spirituality
Never fear
I'm your defender in your universe
A abstinence key to your Pandora box of celibacy
Call me the Rebel with a pause
Standing his ground of "WAIT",
and waiting on you, is my cause
You're the back up source to my happiness
My rib that's all vegan
Excuse me as I inhale long breaths
Waiting to Exhale, the you I am breathing
A slave for love
So I'm not going no where
My choice is here
Destination led this messenger to you
Destination told me, this is my final destination
There is no "After you" talk
If, is not a progressive love word
The only woman next to my birth rights mother
No competition
You are first draft, first contender, first lady, furthermore
MY LAST NAME
I'm obligated to you all the time
I accept this love job as a career move
with you,
Being my 401K plan
A One woman man
Which makes me, "YOUR MAN" with God's consent
that I am "ALL YOURS".

~TNW~

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(My muse, my NaPoMo every month for life)


My LOVE for you is:
...

Priority
Responsible
Intuitive
Dedicated
Engaging
**None of which has to do with PRIDE, When it comes to loving you.**
I Guess I'm:
Obligated
Committed
Dependable
**So yes, I am OCD when loving you Queen Nikki**

~TNW~
‪#‎ourlovematters‬
‪#‎mistahandmizzes‬

MUSE...(VERSITEL) 15/30

Elevation of creativity
Writing seems brand new to me
What is the woman doing to me...
Giving me life in my poetry
My thoughts of her our endless
Writing about love is penless
Writing about us is Tremendous
Her, not in my thoughts, is useless
I hope she hears this
I mean read this
Just 15 of 30 poems, about her on my list
Dedication is nothing
without the presence of the this Goddess
My world keeps spinning Erractically
Like the Earth rotating off its Axis
I see Balance
Two eggs evenly yoked
That makes love our Chalice
Her force takes its course in my scribe
I swear she brought me to life
Time and Time again
This Angel saved my life
The best part of this write
When I end it with I love you
causing poem 16 of 30 come to writes
MUSE

~TNW~

NUBIAN...16/30

Ebony Caramel Machiato
Royalty of Natural essence
Queen of preservation...
Many want to duplicate
While at the same time, not wanting to claim
A mixture in your melanin-
does not create a perfect face
Just the extinction of a beauty race
Check her DNA
100% originality without tainted colors
Chemical free
Dye-less roots to kill her roots
Skin Shea cocoa fresh
Piercings,
is a tribal identity
Beauty marks are birthed tattoo's
She prefers bare feet to grounds
then shoes from bare feet
A good wrap dressed holds up gravitating accessories
A good wrap,
Crowns her mane of green less atmosphere
Her pours is fragrances from fruitful eating
A picture perfect
Painted on Flawless murals
Isis, Nefertiti, Nyabinghi, Ya, Asantewa, Amina, Candace, Makeda
All Queens as you are
All warriors for a cause
Acknowledged and not hidden
I bow to all my Queens
Delegated by birth rights and by Genes.

~TNW~

ONION....17/30

Distinctive me
Inside my skin are layers
Peeling of one's skin...
Defines a part of me
The more you peel away
The deeper you will unveil...ME
I'm layers of:
Emotions
Strength
Love
Characteristics
ME!!
But each layer starts off a formation
A shield over shield
Once stripped away
I'm nakedness of who I am
Bare necessities
A center with no surrounding
The uncover truth in layers of representatives
Look, but not touch
I rather stay protected in my layers
Deep inside my skin
So I can feel and always stay......WHOLE

~TNW~

PRESCRIPTION....18/30 (Pre-Baptism butterflies)

Years of Illness
Misguided food to my soul
Living in the wrong energy...
Occupying a temptation space
Staying sick in good bad health
Being strong was an excuse for weakness
Making decisions without higher approvals
Chasing body parts for companionship
Missing opportunities for my Rib-relationship
Plaguing my spirit
Corrupting my soul
Shortening my life years to short sentences
Until.....
I Accidentally met my Doctor in dreams
Years of "Him" spiritually texting me
In-boxing me daily motivators
Placing invisible "DISLIKES" on my social media statuses
He, friend requested me long before creation
He, Re-friended me when I mentally blocked "HIM"
HE, spammed my life page with viruses
Glitches were stitches on my Matrix wounds
How did I refuse You
When did I lose me,
that made me lose You
My health needs an extension
My spirit needs reinventing
Wearing is a wake up call
Drained is my happy hours
Why am I slowly dying
Why?
Finally, my Doctors visit
Singing of welcoming in the ER (Evangelist Refuge)
All patients greeting and hugging me
The primary physician is waiting on me
Scheduled procedure is on
Walk towards this path of healing
Chances of survival is faithfully granted
Tithe your way through the turnstile
Kneel for this incision
Now You may feel a surge
and, You might starting floating
Eyes of truth will be wide open
All you need to do is submit
and take this SPIRITUAL REJUVENATING PRESCRIPTION
and live again.

~TNW~



(Pre-baptism butterflies poem)

BLISS.......(Freebie)

Waking in a pool of you
Last nights entanglement of deliciousness-
From a kiss that awakens silence...
Wave motion of synchronized sway
We took two casted wall shadows on flickering flames
And became one flesh in walls mural
The first reinvention through a touch
Fires spread in friction upon opening
Parted seas upon staff pounding the surface
Partial covering of bed sheet bondages
I play the sender and you the receiver
In this fast slow pace relay
Passing you the scroll to take this art message home
Her Moon comes across my Sun
We combined in still steady twist-of-fates
and made an Eclipse
The big bang theory
The Genesis of Day 11 at 11, in 7 nights
We acclaim fruits of this Garden
We made Resolutions.......


~L.Goetzendanner~

QUEST...19/30

Tried leading life my way
from love, living and career
All of these are needed but there something missing...
The proper guidance
The higher navigation for direction
A journey was delegated before birth
A value on my life based on my worth
Successes on focus without failures from misleading
Be saved or Be in sin
Faith over temptation
Patience first not quick short cuts
My wants is not what "HE" needs
Trust me as "HE" trust me
No need to continue the path I've paved
That road, leads the wrong way
I Must relax, meditate and pray
cause after this evening
tomorrow is "NEWER" day
And so it begins.......

~L.Goetzendanner~

REBORN.....20/30

It was scary at thought
but only one thing could cause that fear
Kept me away from my purpose, my walk...
but I finally made it back here
I didn't listen to the voices
I listened to the spirits
Those who aren't in that place
Understand me, you won't hear it
It was almost like my last will of rights
The right to turn wrongs back to right
Dawn in white
and for that very moment,
My cloth felt like a shield during a sinful fight
This struggle was getting real
Thoughts of backing out
Prolonging this quest
Procrastinating on another task
but I kept my eyes closed
prayed harder and continue to ask
"Is this the right choice?"
Before I could hear "HIS" responds
I was submitting my life to "HIM"
Tears filled my eyes like the pool before me
The first step into Holy waters burned so good
The second step was cooling me off
Body filled with the body of "HIM"
No longer was I afraid
The Deacons lowered me back
in seconds, in water of redemption I laid
Saw negative images in seconds, FADE
Came back to the surface, MADE
And during this whole time
My Queen was with me
and no longer I was alone
Last night was my expiration to sin
Today is a new day of being "Born Again"
I am........FREE

~L.Goetzendanner~

SURRENDER....21/30

Let go
Let go of the mortal shackles
Release the tides with Sins of Friends...
Know your new beginning is winning
Your old endings are still pretending
You played the slave of the misleading
It time to serve with the freedom of guidance
The door is open
Always has been
Why aren't you walking through it
HE, can help you to it
But HE can't pull you through it
My God man,
more excuses
That's your fears talking
And fears are the Mentor of the Devil
YOU are not his to have
Brush off your shoulder
Take a step towards another step
And laugh spiritually down this new path
This is that hit that gets you high
Stop running away,
And walk fast forward
There are arms awaiting you
A job meant for you
You need no degrees,
Only be a graduate in faith
A completion in being saved
Give up the running
And surrender my friend, SURRENDER....

~L.Goetzendanner~

TRANQUILITY...22/30

Peace,
My current state of mind
Calm, ...
My composure is divine
Quiet,
Do you hear that? Neither do I
Serenity,
My heavenly Mantra surrounding
Cool,
As Artic air to menthol
Stillness,
Earthly rotations at a stand fast
Repose,
sleeping on calamity, third eye on watch
Equanimity,
Cool, Calm and collective emotions during life's pressures
Placidity,
I'm steel walls throwing back unsteady attacks
My vibe is my energy
I breathe the freshness we no longer see
I move bare across sands I came
Blue ceilings and green floors
Sunshine is my glowing radiant
Moonlight is my night light luminescence
Meditation is my resting periods
I dream away reality for fantasy
I dream away, for permanent escape
I dream...

~L.Goetzendanner~

UNITY....23/30

One mind, One thought
One heart, one Love
One statement, one fact...
One following, Leadership
One from two,
Two now one,
One life, us Two live as one
Trials can be won,
As one, we are winning to be won at One
Two hands, joined as one,
We unite us,
To be united,
We are one as we are commUNITY
CommUNITY comes from Unity
Unity brings us back to one
Two eyes to see many visions to one
Its so plain to see,
We are UNITY.

~L.Goetzendanner~

VICTORY.....24/30

You, are a VIC
Now whether you are a....
VICTIM?...
or VICTOR?
You decide!!
A victim, stays a victim
A victor, overcomes being a victim
A victim, seeks attention to heal
A victor, heals and stand victor at attention
A victim, blames all but themselves
A victor, won't blame, but rise with no help
A victim, seeks hero's
A victor, is their own hero
A victim, allows hurt to be ongoing wounds
A victor, wears the hurt and wounds as Tats of overcoming
A victim, becomes everyone's prey
A victor, slays hunters while they pray
A victim, will lose their faith
A victor, always wins with faith wins with faith
A victim, see's a victor and wishes to be like them
A victor, helps the victim become a victor-
so they can be VICTORY of their VICTIMIZED self
So who are you?
What kind a VIC are you?
A VICTIM.......or
A VICTOR.......
No shame at being both
But take claim at being the ONE(WON)

~L.Goetzendanner~

WISHES......25/30

You have been my 30 of 30
Today you are 25 of 30
25th poem as you successfully see over 30...
My wishes came in blessings
My blessings is my answered prayers
My faith on HE, bringing me SHE-
came on HIS approval in layers
I wish you this day like everyday
with LOVE
It's your celebration-
as well as mine
You are my gift that keeps on giving
The Angel created from my rib
Two lives off one life we are living
I wish for continuous growth
I pray on forever progress
I wish you well
I pray for your good health
If they only knew
How you risen from hurt to healing
How you gain from your lost
How brand new you are from the old you
How giving to others
Gave you more in return
How doubt about Love
Brings me in waves of LOVE to your seashore
I was granted 3 wishes
but I only asked for one
Your hand in my hand
Live life together, together until life is done.

~L.Goetzendanner~

Birthday Queen glowing.
‪#‎allmine‬
‪#‎birthdaybeauty‬
‪#‎ourlovematters‬

"X" (EX) 26/30

When Treasure hunting
just know,
that X is not always marking the spot...
Some X's
lead you to old treasure
Treasure you are trying to keep buried
Treasure you don't want to see no more
because that X,
is not the treasure you found-
when you were lost
Just know,
That X,
Not only doesn't mark the spot
but no long hits the spot
That X went from Xcitement
to being Xspired
At one time being a Treasure of Xample
Now a sign of the times called eXit
True blessings come to you with no maps
And surely not on GPS (Gods Provided Soul mate)
So if you see any X
claiming that they are your hidden treasure
Pass down the riches on that money tree
See even Adam's treasure was Xtra
When he thought the apple of his eye
Was the Diamond from Gods light,
Turn out to be serpents treasure,
planting bad apple seeds........EVE.

~L.Goetzendanner~

YEARNING 27/30

Fire burning underneath flooded waters
Anticipation is overwhelming expectation in saturation
The butterflies flutter around my eternal flame...
Heart can't stop racing upon passing thoughts
Visions are so real that I can touch
A mirage teases my grasping hands
Feel so numb and bare by myself
Dependency is my independence with my selfishness
Separation from your presence is destructive
Its only been minutes since I closed your door
Seconds since I started my car
and two blinks since I left your area
but magnetism draws me back
The further I move
the closer your space pursues
I need to turn around
Return to my parallel position
and lay quietly next to you....

~L.Goetzendanner~

ZEN 28/30

My garden
My fertile ground
My relief...
My release
My Ohm
My mind, body and energy
My border
No entry
This pattern is created for one
One allowed to occupy this space
The same one that built this space
Give me my space
Give me my silence
Give me my state of mind
Alerts set off from my third eye
My spirit is held up by Orion
Mother, my Earth, My Oshun
All Horus Eyes on me
My Eyes on Ra...
Ajna see's all

Give me peace
Give me piece
Give me.........
~L.Goetzendanner~

CALLING 29/30

Love was giving to me like a torch
By myself, my love was only a pilot light
You were just silhouettes in my dreams...
A longing needed to be completed
I knew there was another half of me out there-
to make me whole again
Seeking answers to ongoing questions
"How long should my patience wait?"
For years I was:
Encountering desires but not love
Pressing like buttons on scenarios but not love
Embarking on lustful situationships, but not love
Planning my to get my companions,
Not receiving the blessings being delivered-
for love by love
In search of,
Calling out to,
Praying on,
Waiting patiently for.........my CALLING
that's LOVE

~TNW~

NEVERENDING STORY 30/30

There is always a beginning
A start of a journey
The first step towards that first leap...
Usually coming out of nowhere
The least expected happening
An overwhelming attack without preparation
Your fist line of defense is one of the two
To be defensive and protective
or Be cautious while you're accepting
Intuition allows you to spark an interest
Than curiosity takes you to a like
Like heightens your interest
Soon or later,
You begin to love
Love is good
and for this feeling of wait
Love is patient
No matter what you love
You made a decision to feel this emotion
If this love should soar like a kite
Climbing and climbing
While reaching new heights
This happening is more than a score
Its the art of taking flight
Continuing to establish a new accomplishment
Expectations, will stay in its lane for the now
Imagining waking up
Going to sleep
Eat to consume
Think to invision
Touch to be moved
Feel while being fulfilled by love
Then a crown is put on your commitment
You are now defined as Obligation to be dedicated
One with One
All the work had paid off
The time passed minus the wait
has filled a empty plate
No more be single handed in life scheme
You are plan with ground breaking ceremonies
You can now say, "I'm the future"
The funny to this poem
Its only the beginning,
as everyday of your life
Because your Love Poem
Does not have a ending
just a tobe continue.......

This is dedicated to my love of poetry
and my new found Love Poem.........Nikki
30 days and beyond of inspiration by Muse.

~TNW~